Mortality

I made this essay and gave it to my Ex-Girlfriend as a speech for her father's funeral. I just want to share this to anyone who's reading this blog.

Death, Many of us fear death...
many of us look at it as the Dead end of life, Agony, Torment, Pain and even failure.
But we must look at at the brighter side, Because for some death is a blessing...
it is the ultimate expression of our mortality.

Death is just the separation of our soul to our physical body and not the separation of our relationship to our loved ones
because love is more powerful than death.

We all live in this world once, a chance that the divine gave us to search for our purpose and to search for the meaning of life itself...
to find answers, answers that will lead to more questions... questions that will lead to even more questions... the never ending process of searching for the truth.
until we stop asking God and in that moment we will realize that answers come in their own rightful time that God has intended for our own sake... for our own good
that we will all eventually thank him in the future for his perfect and flawless plans.

Feel Good Music

Reflections

"Pain makes us make bad decisions, fear of pain is almost as big a motivator. " ~ house

BLOODY IRONIC

sanely insane
secretively open
seriously funny
strangely familiar
vulnerably strong
sinfully good
tremendously small
girlishly masculine
dangerously harmless
friendly foe
terribly nice
passively aggressive
sleepy insomniac
grown up kid
hopeless optimist
nameless celebrity
roaring silence
perfectly human
complicatedly simple
terminally everlasting

THE PLACEBO EFFECT

YOU ARE FINE.

C_________E

Dont' tell me who you are,
Never Tell me your name.
Don't show a glimpse of Obviousness,
Never call me by name.

Anonimity is your game,
but your disguises are lame. . .

I know you by heart,
It's just my mind telling me I Don't. . .

Why of all people that I know, I'd still think It'll be you

My mind is blind. . .
But my heart sees music.

Singing. . .

Our joy, Our joy, Our joy. . .

I Hope you hear it. . .

Metaphorically Speaking

A and I saw a FLY while having our so called YOSI BREAK after playing a frustrating game of D.O.T.A. My Friend Noticed that this fly can't literally "fly" because one of its wing is damaged,
So I Said. . .

VN: Thats not a FLY thats a JUMP.

A: lol.

Then it came to me. . .

If I was a FLY and cannot "FlY" should I still be called a FLY?

Which Bothers me. . .

If I were that fly maybe. . . I'd be another evolutionary form of a Fly Called "Super Fly"

Co'z hes so stubborn that he knows flying is overrated, and intentionally he decides to jump and crawl instead, co'z it makes him more interesting, more different, more unique,less boring. . . more human. . .

VN

"You Can Never Control Emotions. . . Just Reactions"

Dont Read This It'll get you confused. . .

I don't know,
They dont know,
Who?
Me?
Yes?
No?
I Know you, But I Really don't Know you,
You Know Me, but I'm sure you don't really know me,
I Know that you know that I don't know what you know,
You know that you don't completely know yourself,
and I know that you dont have to know everything about anyone either. . .
If the answer is questioning you,
why bother answering and repeat the same cycle that is just looping in your head?
why not answer a question with a YES or NO without thinking about the gray area. . .
Why can't all thing be just BLACK and WHITE?
Gray is boring anyway. . .
But why bother?

I warned you. . .

MY Nephews WISDOM

Actually this is supposed to be a joke. . . but realizing the honesty of it, it really does make sense

Niko: Kuya Vn Gusto mo yumaman?

VN: Pano?

Niko: Magipon ka ng isang milyong kaibigan, tapos hingan mo lahat ng tag-pipiso. . .

VN: (ngiti)

Damn it. . .

Shhhhhhhhhh................

Badtrip talaga. . .


Ang pinaka nakakabanas na tao sa mundo ay yung mga taong
mahilig mag bura. . .

Bura lang ng bura kahit di alam kung mahalaga para sa iba.

ayus sana kung nasa recyle bin lang. . .
ang masaklap. . . wala.

[]~[]____

Ilang recess na ang tiniis para lang ma-angkin ka,
para kahit papaano marinig ko ang kargada mong musika,
halos mahilo sa gutom at mamilipit sa kalam ng tyan,
matatapos lang ang pinitensya ko pag alam kong ikay nandyan.

Simple lang naman ang gusto ko,
kahit di totoo,
kahit di tulad ng iniisip ng iba,
basta't alam kong kaya mo akong pasayahin,
kahit sa mga oras na akoy mag-isa,
masasabi kong tayong dalawa ay iisa.

Alam kong paminsan-minsan nananahimik ka,
kahit papaano nauubos din ang iyong baterya,
kaya sa mga oras na tahimik at kailangan kita,
wala akong magawa kundi tumingin sa mukha ng ibang tao,
mga mukha nilang blangko, at nakakainip tignan.

pero ngayong putol na ang isang linya,
para bang di kumpleto ang saya.
ngayong sira na,
tinititigan nalang kita. . .

iniisip kung dapat pa bang buuin ka. . .

"I am Ambiguity"

Your life was nearly perfect,
You've got all the things you want,
but not all the things you need,

I'm your shame your misery and your pain,
in your prayers I can hear my name,
the one you blame.
But no. . .

Do you realize that I make your life worth living,
that I supress and improve your reality simultaneously,
that I gave you a story to tell.

This is opportunity. . .
Be Close to me. . .
Hear me. . .
Come closer. . .
You'll see.