Sigh 1.2

12:52 pm. . .

kakagising ko lang galing sa pag jajaming at pagtambay kagabe . . .
gma 12:30 ng gabi na ako nakarating dito sa pamamahay. . .
Pagkadating

Kaunting Net,
Higa,
Tulog.


Sari Saring panaginip,
Nandyan nung nagpunta raw kami sa ibang bansa,
Nang may lalaking nanghahabol sa amin na tila isang killer na hindi ko na matandaan,
Nang makatakas kami at natapos na ang unang chapter ng panaginip ko,
Nagsimula ang second chapter na may outing ang isang mag-anak at kasama ako,
Kasama ko rin SIYA...
Nasa VAN kami at nakahiga siya sa aking binti. . .
Ang sarap ng pakiramdam. . .
Pero sa kalagitnaan ng panaginip naisip ko nananaginip lang ba ako?
Muntik na akong magising habang ako'y nag-aalangan,
pero pinilit ko paring isipin na nasa mundo parin ako ng panaginip. . .
at dun muna ako nanatili. . .
huminto ang van,
at akoy lumabas dito. . .
Nagbalak na bumili ng kung ano,
at akoy naligaw,
napunta sa kung saan-saan at tinahak ang daan na ang pagkakaalam ko ay patungo muli sa naiwang van.
At nakita ko nga ang van na aming sinasakyan.
Nakita ko uli siya. . .
Pero hindi ko na matandaan ang istorya. . .
Pero tanda ko ang suot niya. . .
kulay UBE. . .
habang nakahiga siya sa aking binti at yakap ko siya. . .

Wierdo talaga ng mga panaginip. . .
pero nagtataka ako bakit sa dinami dami ng mapapanaginipan ko bakit siya?

Ewan . . .

ZOMBIE

Puyat nanaman kakalaro,
Gutom at tuliro.
Gigising ng tanghali,
Ma le-late nanaman,
zzzzzzzzzZzzzzZ. . .
HA?!

HOROSCOPES

Minsan di mo masasabi kung totoo o hindi ang horoscopes. . . minsan tama minsan mali. . . pero para sa akin, depende yun sa paniniwala mo. e sakto ganito pakiramdam ko ngayon.


Friendster Horoscope for February 1, 2008
Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)



The Bottom Line
Your energy may be lagging, but you could use a little break anyway. So enjoy it.
In Detail
Your energy may be lagging now, but you could use a little break from the action anyway. Don't worry -- there will be very little for you to get involved with, anyway. Instead, what you need to do today is to take yourself to a few unfamiliar places. Explore what different cultures have to offer. Try new food, explore new fashions and listen to some exotic music. Experience a few things that you don't necessarily understand. You have just the right mellow energy to be just fine with that.



. . . ahhh

Sigh 1.1

Nakakalungkot. . .

Yun madalas ang nararamdaman ko.

Madami na palang nangyari netong mga nakaraang araw.
minsan parang gusto ko nalang sumabog bigla.
malungkot ako sa totoo lang.
madalas gigising at papasok. . .

routine na. . .
ritwal na unti-unting pumapagod sa akin. . .
medyo unti-unti na akong tinatamad. . .
pero ayokong tamarin. . .
gusto ko ang ginagawa ko kaya lang. . .
may kulang. . .

kung anu man yon. . . meron at hindi ko alam. . .
bastat nararamdaman ko may kulang. . .
wala akong gustong paringan o makinig sa akin. . .
sinasabi ko lang ang totoong umiikot sa dibdib ko. . .
malungkot. . .
pero lumalaban ako. . .
ayokong tablan ng kahinaan. . .
dahil halos lahat ng kakapitan ko ay sarili ko lang. . .
ayokong magpadala sa kung ano man ang mga nararamdaman ko sa ngayon. . .
ayokong malungkot. . .
yun lang. . .
lalabanan ko ang lungkot. . .
paminsan minsan talaga, kailangang malungkot ng isang tao para malaman niya ang tunay na kahulugan ng saya.

kailangan may bagong magawa. . .

tatawa na lang nga. . . hahaha.End.

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

"Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections but instantly set about remedying them - every day begin the task anew. "~Saint Francis de Sales

Mi Obra II

FIGURINE PAINTING PROJECT NAMIN SA MAPEH.

Dahil binigyan kami ng mga figurines na walang color, at nakita ko lahat ng kaklase ko na nag gagandahang anghel ang ginawa sa mga figurin nila. syempre pasaway ako. ginawa ko nalang demonyo sa akin! MWAHAHAHAH! Againts the flow ako eh! badtrip lang dahil LETTER "R" ang napunta sa akin na hangang sa ngayon eh pinipilit ko paring bigyan ng meaning pero, WALA! WALA akong mapala kakahanap! PEro ok lang! Atleast may gawa hehe!

...Of Self - Pity

...

Self-Pity is the most ridiulous thing to do.

REMEMBER THIS.

SELF-PITY, is putting yourself in a situation where you become weaker and weaker if you dont stop. It's a natural human emotion ( BUT ONLY FOR THE WEAK!) but if you dont stop it as soon as possible, YOU WILL SELF-DESTRUCT.

SELF-PITY = SELF-DESTRUCTION

Be strong . . . past are past. . . Let them be. Today is Today. Own it!

YOUR HAPINESS IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY

Don't be like a child mourning at problems.

ALWAYS THINK OF THIS: THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO HAS FAR MORE GREATER PROBLEMS THAN WHAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH.

So Grow up, Cheer Up. First thing to do when you have a problem???

SOLVE IT!

Problems are meant to be solved . . . not to be mourned.

[been there done that ~ VN]

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

"Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything good in the world." ~Helen Keller

Finished...

I have just finished "THE SECRET" today.

It was a great read. After that this is what I said to myself. . .

"After all,The Greatest things I should know is what I already know, but hardly remember"

I knew, all this time, the SECRET. Thank God He let me have a concrete example of it.

- A BOOK OF MY THEORY -

And it really works.

After I finished the book, the first thing that came to my mind was to lend it to Ms.K who wants to borrow it from me.

Then Guess what. . .

When I went home I found her walking in font of our house. coincidence? I think not. The law is working. and it is absolute.

well that was the first test . . . I have to try it on other things.

- † -

You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong.

You cannot help small men by tearing down big men.

You cannot help the poor by destroying the rich.

You cannot lift the wage earner by pulling down the wage payer.

You cannot keep out of trouble by spending more than your income.

You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatreds.

You cannot establish security on borrowed money.

You cannot build character and courage by taking away a man's initiative and independence.

You cannot help men permanently by doing for them what they could and should do for themselves

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

"It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues." ~Abraham Lincoln

I WON'T LIE . . .

. . .

Of how I really long for you,

Those Eyes That Shimmer,

Brigter than the moon of every pitch black night,

nights where we sit beneath the silver clouds,

with you in my shoulders and me strumming the guitar,

how each string strucks you,

and how your grip tightens after each song.

Those days when we sleep all day and embracing each other till the light fades to black,

of how long the day was when i'm not with you;

Oh! how I want those things back!

of how days were short without noticing it coz we spend it laughing about anything;

of how I tell you my deepest frustrations and you touching my face and looking me straight in the eye.

I'd rather be with you until the day I die...

But for the meantime.

I'll let the Universe set it's ways,

and until that day,

I'll pray,

with every Smile,

Every Breath,

And every Sigh.

VN CONVICTION 1:1

DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!

~BE DIFFERENT NOT FOR THE SAKE OF JUST BEING DIFFERENT, BE DIFFERENT FOR THE SAKE OF CHANGE.~

~VN

TA(O)YO

Tuwing nasa biyahe ako . . .

Tuwing napapasama sa mararaming tao . . .

Tulad sa LRT, Quiapo, Baclaran . . .

O saan man lugar na madalas ay matao;

Nararamdaman kong parang isa lang akong maliit na porsyento ng mga taong nasa paligid ko.

Isa nanaman akong salot na magbibigay ng sakit ng ulo sa mundo.

Isa lang akong tao na araw araw nakikisabay sa ikot ng buhay.

Isang Makina na Sumasabay sa mga iba pang MAKINA.

pero lagi ko nalang iniisip. . .

HINDI AKO BASTA BASTA TAO.

HINDI LANG AKO MABUBUHAY MAPAPAGOD AT MAMAMATAY.

GUSTO KO NG PAGBABAGO.

HINDI AKO PANGKARANIWAN.

KAKAIBA AKO SA IBA.

PERO TAO PARIN AKO.

Sa araw-araw tumitingin ako sa mga taong nakakasabay ko at nakikita ko. . .

May masaya, May malungkot, May galit, May walang pakielam, May papansin, May kulang sa pansin, May Mayaman, May Mahirap, pero nakakapagod pala i-categorize ang mga tao. . .tsk. . .

Pare-Pareho lang naman tayo bakit pa natin kailangan mapabilang sa isang grupo. . . kailangan ba? pare-pareho din naman tayong magiging abo sa huli. . . anong silbi ng pagkukumpara mo sa ibang tao. . .

Isa sa mga problema ng tao kaya siya nagkakaproblema ay dahil sa. . .

i·so·la·tion (noun)

1.
separation from others: the process of separating somebody or something from others, or the fact of being alone and separated from others
2.
geographic remoteness: remoteness from other inhabited areas or buildings
in isolation
1. separate from other related factors or things
We have to look at the problem in isolation.
2. alone and physically separated from other people

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Pero para sa akin hindi mismong paghihiwalay mo sa sarili mo sa iba, kundi ang pagiisip mo na iba ka sa iba at hindi ka kasapi ng iba. (gets mo?)

ok ganito nalang. . . Kunwari isa kang kamatis. . . umalis ka sa bayong ng mga kapwa mo kamatis para sabihan silang mga bulok na kamatis at ipagmalaki mo na ikaw ay isang talong. . . sinong mas tanga/inutil/tonto/hangal/moron/istupido/bobo?

. . . para sa akin kung gusto mo ihiwalay ang sarili mo sa buong sankatauhan. . . ihiwalay mo ang sarili mo sa paraang kasama ka parin at kasapi ka parin ng buong mundo tungo sa pagbabago. . . (gets mo uli?)

ok ganito uli. . . Kunwari isa kang HALAMAN. . . Umalis ka sa dati mong lupa dahil wala kang sustansiyang nakukuha at napapansin mong ang mga kasama mong halaman ay nalalanta. . . pumunta ka sa lupang mas mataba at doon muna lumagi. . . ngayon, ikaw ay malusog na HALAMAN na, at napatunayan mong mas maganda sa pwestong kinatataniman mo ngayon. . . yayayain mo ang ibang halaman na tumabi sayo para mas lumago sila at hindi malanta. . .

Sana maging ganito ang mentalidad ng lahat . . . yung tipong lahat umaangat . . . yung tipong hindi lahat ng sisi ituturo natin sa gobyerno o sa ibang tao. . . kung ganito ang ugali nating lahat . . . hindi na natin ka-kakailanganin pa ng gobyerno. . . tayo na mismo ang gobyernong magpapaunlad sa sarili natin. . . tayo na mismo ang magpapatibay sa atin.

You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty. ~ Mahatma Gandhi

...

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

"What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?" ~ Dr. Robert Schuller

WHEN ENTERING AN EXTREMELY SMELLY COMFORT ROOM

MIND OVER MATTER

"I'm in a field of Jasmines."

Ahummmm....