Sustantivo

Minsan pakiramdam ko ako'y ganito,
Lumulutang sa harap mo,
nakikita ko ang bawat kilos mo,
sumisingit sa bawat kumpas ng katawan mo...

pero miserable ako kung tutuusin,
dahil kahit nasa harap mo na, di mo parin pansin.
kahit nasa paligid na ng iyong labi sa loob ng iyong katawan,
di mo parin ako ramdam. . .


mahapdi sa balat ang napapanahong hamog,
bumibilis tuloy ang puso ko sa pas-pasang pag-kabog,
di ko rin malaman kung bakit ganito ang panahon,
sa huli mo na mararamdaman ang kagat ng ginaw,
para bang sabay mo akong pina-titigas at tinutunaw.

Sana kahit paminsan ay makita mo ako,
ituring na isang elementong bumubuhay sa iyo,
kahit di mo kita, sana kahit papano'y alam mong andyan,
bumubulong sa iyong tenga ng mga mensaheng di mo maintindihan.

Kailangan ko nang umalis sa ganitong sitwasyon,
Tao ako di ako hangin. . .
kahit papaano kailangan ko rin ng atensyon. . .

DIRECTIONS

. . . Getting lost, is the only way to be found . . . Or the other way around. . .

Losing my Religion

"Oh Lord, give me the patience to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

I am not being a goody-goodie preacher here, I just appreciate this quotation so much. . . I was born. Catholic. . . tenent. . . the usual "endanemopdapader" things and rituals. . . I was always brought to Church every Sunday when I was a kid, Church for me is wall-fans, long-benches, soft kneeling-bars (if that's what they call it), angel statues holding a sink, boring sermons and the like. . . But I like churches, they are very solemn places where you can relax, pray (or pretend to) very artistically designed buildings/structures, built to last. But the sermons. . .

If only The Almighty could comment to his priestly minions. . .

OLMAYTI: ENERGY!!! Lame douche bags. . . But this particular. . . very particular sermon was tattooed on my mind. . .

If you hold on to a thing with both hands how could you catch the better things that are bigger and better and good for you?. . .

Kung nakahawak ka sa iisang bagay ng mahigpit gamit ang dalawang kamay mo, papaano mo masasalo ang ibang bagay na ibinibigay sa iyo?

and that was it. . . after that sermon every good things happened to my life. . . good or bad, but they contributed a lot to who I am now, co'z letting go could make or break the butterfly effect. . . we all have a choice. . . but most of the time it's better to let go of the things that is out of our control. . .

A letter to heaven. . .

. . . do you know why devils are so admired? ..its because they know how to fight even though they are doomed to fall . . .

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Ilang recess na ang tiniis para lang ma-angkin ka,
para kahit papaano marinig ko ang kargada mong musika,
halos mahilo sa gutom at mamilipit sa kalam ng tyan,
matatapos lang ang pinitensya ko pag alam kong ikay nandyan.

Simple lang naman ang gusto ko,
kahit di totoo,
kahit di tulad ng iniisip ng iba,
basta't alam kong kaya mo akong pasayahin,
kahit sa mga oras na akoy mag-isa,
masasabi kong tayong dalawa ay iisa.

Alam kong paminsan-minsan nananahimik ka,
kahit papaano nauubos din ang iyong baterya,
kaya sa mga oras na tahimik at kailangan kita,
wala akong magawa kundi titigan ka,
gawing salamin upang makita ang sariling mga ngiti at saya.

pero ngayong putol na ang isang linya,
para bang di kumpleto ang saya.
ngayong sira na,
tinititigan nalang kita. . .
di sigurado kung gagana pa. . .

iniisip. . .
kung dapat pa bang buuin ka. . .

Strike two. . .

Don't assume or you'll regret it,
if you want everything to end,
just go preach it,

Just try. . .
reveal my secrets,
empower your lies,


I'm tired of this stupidity,
I made it clear to you that friendship is all about longevity,
Of trust,
Of respect,
Of understanding and most of all of Principles and boundaries. . .

As simple as that.

Nothing more nothing less. . .

I drew this line before,
so visible it's obviously seen by all.
Why do you keep on ignoring it,
your oh so lame excuses, your not a kid.


Read this and get mad. . .
Snob me in the hall. . .
like what you did before. . .
you know what comes after two. . .

Don't let the third strike come for you. . .